February 4-5, 1997 - Asking out a boy for the first time

I am SO excited and nervous!
I asked **** out over the phone and he said he would think about it and tell me at school! I hope he says yes! If he says no I will be so mad!
I cant wait until tomorrow! This is the first time I have asked anyone out!
I will tell you what **** says tomorrow!
— February 4, 1997

Courage

If there was one thing I did not lack growing up, it was courage.  Talk about putting yourself out there!  Hey, if you never try you never know. 

If I knew then what I know now...

I would give my young self the biggest hug and high five for believing in myself! This will be the beginning of the many risks I would learn to take.

**** said no. Im so upset! He said, “I don’t think we should go out.” He said this before homeroom. At the end of the day he asked out ****! I was and still am so mad! I don’t think that relationship is going anywhere! Al is going to get so snobby!
She is going to be a brat and her friends won’t take it!
— February 5, 1997

Ouch! Rejection!

I remember how embarrassed I was when he said no!  The positive is I was learning how to cope with rejection at a young age. It is healthy to get a taste of not getting what you want in life. This will definitely not be the last time, in any aspect of life, that I wouldn’t get what I wanted.

If I knew then what I know now...

I would relax because none of the relationships formed in middle school were going to last!